There is not much exciting or blog-worthy going on in my life at the moment. I’m still in this weird funk, but sort of optimistic that I’ll get out of it soon. I seem to start being more organized and a bit more active and I’m trying to keep that up this week without over-doing it. Besides procrastination I might also have a tiny problem with pacing myself or my activties. It’s not I’m doing too much in the sense of being exhausted, but in the sense of spending too much time doing it.
Reading the “Wilderness” novel series is one of these activies. I’ve started book 4 a few days ago and still like the whole story a lot even though the focus of the story has shifted from the novel with which it all started. I have a hard time putting the books down even though I know there are more important things I should do. :-)
Another activity which threatens to take up (too) much of my time might be “Geocaching”. I tried that last year with a phone app, but without much success and somehow I never got around to join Steffi once on a Geocaching tour before she moved to Munich. I always wanted to try it for real though and a week ago I finally did. I had booked a “try out geocaching” afternoon and it was a lot of fun. I knew I wanted to do that again and only a few days later I had ordered my very own first handheld GPS, a Garmin eTrex Legend HCx.
I really don’t like myself much at the moment. Why? Because I’m lazy and unfocused and I avoid and put things off and procrastinate like a pro. At the moment it really seems like I could win gold medals if there was such a thing as the Worldchampionship of Procrastination. I feel like postponing and avoiding things is all I do. And I still haven’t figured out why. I always used to be a bit like that, especially with stuff or tasks I dreaded, but sooner or later I got over it and just dealt with whatever it was I postponed for a while. But this time, I feel like I don’t even do that, but let it all gather and pile up and bury me. Ok, the last might be exaggerating, but I really have no idea how to get out of this weird state of mind.
I spend much too much time thinking about anytime, anywhere or anyplace but the “right here right now”. If I don’t think about that, I watch TV shows or at the moment am completely hooked on the Wilderness novel series. I feel like I completely lack any self-control, because I know I should for example read textbooks for the grad school class I’m enrolled in at the moment instead of spending all my time reading about the Bonner family. I know that and I know that I should and could put the novel away and actually be productive in some way. I just don’t want to. Which might contradict the “could do it” part, I know.
I’ve been back from my short vacation since last Sunday and still haven’t posted some photos. Shame on me (and my procrastination habit). There are a lot of other things I was supposed to be doing but than Nathaniel and Elizabeth from “Into the Wilderness” kept me entertained so much that it was (and still is) hard to put the book down. I really should find some strategies to overcome my procrastination tendency.
Anyway, I’ve uploaded a bunch of pictures from my 4-day trip to the Lower Rhine Region and a link to the photoalbum will be found at the end of this post. I’d love to comment on a few (or a lot *g*) of those pictures and tell you a tiny bit more about the trip and that’s what this post is about.
I stayed in a tiny, but amazing B&B with wonderful hosts and an amazing breakfast every morning:
This post will not include pictures (yet), because I wrongly assumed that my new camera had the same USB recaptable than my phone and thus I didn’t bring the right connector/plug to transfer photos to my netbook. I might either update this post with photos in a few days or more likely write a follow up post with lots of pictures.
I had planned this short vacation because I was so sick of my everyday life. Tired of the daily hassle of work at the office and work for my local Greens. Tired of various other seemingly important issues I have to deal with. I had hoped that a mere change of scenery would help to leave all the stress and (more emotionally than physically) tiresome stuff behind. I admit that I somehow expected it to not work out this way and that I would still spend too much time thinking about non-vacation stuff.
So imagine my suprise and more important my delight when I realized that this vacation here obviously was/is just what I needed. All the issues and all the people that used to bother me to some degree seem so far away. Stored away somewhere in the far back of my mind. I just don’t think about any of it. At all. Except right now when I actually try to remember all the stuff I don’t think about at the moment, if that makes any sense.
When I got my first Tysabri IV on 3rd June I didn’t naively believe that it would manage to stop my MS from progressing right away. I knew it would take some time for this medication to take effect and that I might even have relapses while I’m on it. I did not however expect a relapse just little over a week after I got the first IV of this new MS wonder drug! But exactly that happened and it’s so not fair and it sucks! Big time.
I had such a hard time making up my mind about if I want to try this new drug in the first place and I spend most of February and the beginning of March thinking and worrying about it and trying to cope with the fact that my MS is progressing much more than I believed it did. I spend most of February in a rather dark place and I was so happy when I finally got out of it and managed to put the whole MS issue in the back of my mind again, where it belongs, because I don’t want this issue to rule my life. And then… The MS strikes once more. I admit that right now I’m not just concerned about the current symptoms and but also insanely mad that I have an MS attack at all! After all the mental and emotional crap it already had put me through this year. I am so pissed off!
My first Tysabri IV (read this state of my health blog post from April for details) was originally scheduled for 13th May. I had to cancel it because I was sick and the MS nurse and I rescheduled it for today. I didn’t spend that much time thinking or worrying about it in advance, because I’ve did all of that back in February / March. I did – subconsciously ? – try to distract me yesterday though, when I started to fill my virtual bookshelves at Goodreads. I’ve managed to „transfer” approximately 15% of my books, which means the whole project will keep me busy for a while longer. I’ll also try to include the date, when I read it, which means digging into blog archives and the book reviews I kept on my site in 2002 – 2006. It’s fun to revisit this all and to remember reading these books. And yes, it’s very distracting from any worries that would have maybe crossed my mind otherwise.
When I had to renew my cell phone contract (and get a new phone) at the end of 2009 I knew I wanted to get a smartphone, even though I only had a vague idea why and what exact kind of phone I wanted. I didn’t compare a lot of offers or such I bought the one that was a new / special offer from my phone carrier and I was more or less happy with this decision.
Over the last two years I read/heard about and saw a lot of others, newer, better smartphones and once I learned more about the limitations of the Palm Pre (for example: not nearly as much Apps as there are for iPhone or Android) I knew that my next phone would not be a Palm but either iPhone or Android. Just a few weeks ago I even already tried to get an idea of which kind of Android phones are on the market and which I might buy, if I wouldn’t buy an iPhone.
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