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IV 4 & Work

Four down, one more to go. I got around 5.5 hours of sleep again, which isn’t too bad for a body pumped up with corticoidsteroids. I watched Grey’s this morning (and the review I’ll write tomorrow will probably be the shortest ever. Not because it was a necessarily BAD episode, because I would have lots to criticize then. The idea of doing a time-warp episodes with flashback could have been a good one, if it had actually helped to move the present story forward in some way. But it really didn’t,  so it was a strange episode)

About 10 minutes before me IV ended this morning , another patient got into the room for an IV as well. A woman in her 40s. I’m mean now and can only call her trashy. And I wouldn’t even have minded that much, if she hadn’t been chatty and stupid as well. Ugh! That’s the worst kind and I was so glad I could leave the practice after these few minutes.
I went to the office after that, because there was an important meeting of my bosses and my co-worker had previous appointments so I offered to come in for the the whole administrative stuff. And I didn’t really mind, because the sideeffects aren’t bothering me this much as they did at previous IV cycles. It was ok and the crappy mood I was in when I left, can’t really be blamed on the current MS attack or the meds or sideffects, but the usual meeting madness. It’s really my least favourite part of my job. But it was still ok to do it. I just like to whine and mope a little sometimes :-)

I passed up on two Starbucks visits which I most probably wouldn’t have passed on, if I weren’t trying to give it up for Lent. Once as a dessert treat after lunch and the second at the Central Station on my way back home tonight after the meeting. So yay me, for staying strong. (I just bought lots of chocolate instead *g*)

Not much more to write about though. I’ll definitely go to bed in a short while and try to get some sleep, even though I’m not sure I’ll be able to actually get some. But I should be well rested in the morning, when I plan to head over to my Mom’s place before 6 AM to watch the 2nd game of the German Hockey team together with my brother. Go Germany Go!
I’ve got the other game of our group on at the moment (SWE – BLR) and I’d have to say, the Germans were better against Sweden than Belarus are doing at the moment. So I guess that’s the team we have to beat on Sunday morning!

IV 2 & Lent

Olympics really don’t help with trying to at least get enough sleep during this corticoidsteroids IV cycle *sigh* I don’t sleep well with these meds in my bloodstream anyway and now that I’m forced to stay up late at night to watch Olympics and I have to get up around 7.30 AM to get to the practice around 9 AM and usually doing some stuff in the afternoon (houshold chores or answering some mails or taking care of some small work-related issues) I have no idea when to lay down and try to rest a bit ;-) Oh well, I’m still not walking around zombie-like, so that’s ok so far ;-)
I don’t know if it’s the lack of sleep or the meds, that give me a slight headache. Or not even an ache, but it’s just feeling a bit weird. I actually wanted to watch the hockey game CAN – NOR last night, but dozed off before it was supposed to start and when I remembered to turn on the TV, the German station, which was supposed to broadcast it, hadn’t started to do so, but was showing something else (Curling?) instead. So I opted against staying up and did catch a couple of hours of sleep until I 5.30 am, but managed to doze off again for a while. So that’s 4 hours of sleep + maybe 2 hours of on and off dozing. Oh well…

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Chocolate Or Not?

I can’t give up White Caffe Moccha for almost two weeks. I just can’t. And I’m not sure if I actually have to, although I’m giving up chocolate for Lent. Because white chocolate isn’t really chocolate, is it? Because it doesn’t really contain the usual cocoa, just cocoa butter and sugar and… Ok, this reasoning might be far-fetched. But it’s reason enough for me to justify drinking White Caffe Moccha even during my chocolate free weeks. And going without chocolate is hard enough. And with this justification I went into the Starbucks this afternoon. I had to get a treat after work (assisting during a boring event / conference), an unsuccessful visit to IKEA and way too many annoying people everywhere around me.
Maybe I should try to just not get annoyed and pissed off during Lent instead of giving up chocolate. I will do my best to not let rude and stupid behaviour get to me that much. I don’t know how well that resolution goes when I can’t calm my nerves with some chocolate though :-)

There are a few more possible blog-worthy thoughts on my mind, but I’m too tired and lazy to get myself to write about that. Which is kind of sad. But just the way it is at the moment. I guess I’ll spend the rest of the night on “The West Wing”. So much more interesting than my boring life…

Chocolate Withdrawal..

Will there ever be a time when I’m not that insanely busy and when I won’t feel like I’m in over my head *sigh*? I have canceled a meeting tonight, because I started to get a headache this afternoon and I had not interest in sitting through another not very interesting meeting with a pounding head. Took some aspirin and actually planned to rest at home. But then there were things to do for job#2 and some local politics stuff and… ups, it past 8 pm already. I will have to postpone working through some study material for one of my termpapers till tomorrow.

With all that stuff going on and keeping me busy I maybe should have passed on this year’s Lent. I usually gave up chocolate for Lent in the recent years and managed that quite well actually. But right now and even already yesterday I’m craving chocolate to calm my nerves. On the other hand it’s alarming how naturally I consume anything chocolate-y during the day / week. Not in huge amounts, but regulary. I’m not sure if I already drank that much Starbucks Coffee during the last years or if I did, I cheated a bit during Lent, because every kind of Cafe Moccha could and should be considered chocolate and thus not allowed. And that actually feels like torture. Selfinflicted torture. Why on earth am I doing this? Oh yes, right, to prove that I can. Once a year for a couple of weeks. Still… I was so tempted to hop into the Starbucks this afternoon. But I didn’t. Yay.

Our local Greens are also doing some kind of Lent campaign: Reduce our CO2 impact. We choose different ways and I decided to pay more attention to the “CO2 footprint” of the products (groceries and otherwise) I buy. Which means to preferably buy fruits and vegetables of the season and region. And to basically check the labels for the production site, because the farther away something was produced the more CO2 will be caused with transporting it. Ok, that’s the idea in a nutshell and the whole issue is much more complicated. This is just a test, if an ordinary costumer is able to find out the CO2 impact of a product. And how to act, when you do. So it’s not really giving up something, but more paying a bit more attention to consumption habits. I don’t think I’d care how far the chocolate had to travel though, if I could just have some now…

On a happier note: Today I bought tickets for the only German concert of “The Fray”. May 7th. Yay! I’m really looking forward to that.