A few weeks back I provided this prompt for the prompt-ly listserv, so it’s about time I follow up with my own blog post . After careful consideration I knew I had to write about two fictional characters. The first one should come as no surprise, if you have been reading this blog in the last two years.
If you have been following this blog for the last two years you will have noticed that I am a huge fan of the “Outlander” novel series, written by Diana Gabaldon. You only have to check the tags on the right side column to find the various posts I wrote about it :)
“Outlander” was first published 20 years ago and there will be a super special 20th Anniversary Edition. Karen from the wonderful blog “Outlandish Observations” decided to have a contest in celebration of this occasion. The prize is a copy of the 20th Anniverary edition, signed by Diana Gabaldon herself. The contest rules require a short description of what “Outlander” means to you. Of course I couldn’t pass up this opportunity to once more share with the world, why “Outlander” is my favourite novel series. The following is my contest entry, keep your fingers crossed for me :-) Continue reading
I’m still planning to use my christmas bonus to buy a sofa. If there still is money left, once the store will finally be able to show me color samples for the covers and cushions.
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While I was playing “Game On” I drunk a lot of tea to get all the necessary “water” points ;-) I kept that up after the game was over and probably because the outside temps make hot liquid essential. I bought not only various different teas and suppllies over the last few days, but as I was tired of my ordinary thermos, today I even bought a unique teapot, teapot-warmer and cups. I couldn’t help myself. I still hope there will be enough money left for the sofa at the end of the month.
My internet kind of sucks at the moment. Or maybe it’s just the file download that is slowing it down and doesn’t allow me to use any kind of streaming, like youtube and such. I guess I have to be patient, which I have to admit I have a hard time with recently. Maybe it’s because there is so much going on. Or maybe, no, most probably it is, because people are so getting on my nerves recently. I’ve already started to ask myself if maybe the others aren’t the problem, but I just tend to overreact or misinterpret some behaviour or comments or any other kind of social interaction. Or maybe a lot of people just are a nuisance right now :-) I really try to not get riled up about some stuff, because it is such a waste of time and energy. But sometimes it’s hard to be “all Zen” about it.
Add all the things I have on my plate right now (work, local politics, grad school) and it’s a little wonder that I still feel like I’ve got a grip on it all. Well, more or less. Every once in a while my bad conscience is bothering me, because I am behind on some stuff and I tend to postpone doing it. Procrastination at it’s best. But I’ve got tomorrow off from work because I will have to accompany my mom to some pre-surgery exams and consults at the hospital. I’ve skipped out of a meeting I actually planned to attend tomorrow evening. There will be an additional conference call on Thursday night, so I really wanted to have at least tomorrow evening off. I’ve got Friday off work as well, so I should be able to get some of the things done.
I have no idea what’s wrong with me. Not “wrong” in the “feeling sick” kind of way, because I feel ok. Not quite my old self yet though, because I’m so tired all the time. Well, maybe not ALL the time, but much more than I used to be. Not just tired physically. I feel like I also have a slight “getting motivated to do anything” problem. It’s weird to explain and written down it probably already sounds worse than it is. I don’t know… I just feel weird. And it annoys me. Not quite knowing how to get over it, annoys me even more.
This “feeling weird” thing probably also is the reason, why I still have a lot of things I want to / should do, but I prefer to procrastinate instead. I excel at procrastination by now. I still haven’t started to work on that termpaper, which I have postponed in February and which is due in September. I haven’t started a new class yet either. I’m doing tiny bits of research for the paper every once in a while, but I should just clear my schedule for a weekend and start writing it for good. It’s the same with some stuff for my local Greens or town council work. I could work on various topics, but I don’t.
I also really should start to work out again. Either at the gym or on the bike (or even better… both), but I haven’t gotten my lazy ass of my couch yet. I thought about taking a ride on my bike this weekend, but then I slept so so poorly last night and woke up late and there is no way I’m starting to exercise at noon when it’s already around 30 °C. Too lazy to do it in the evening today either. As my schedule for tomorrow is already packed, I have to use the morning hours to clean my apartment (which I could have done today, I admit, but as I slept so poorly I couldn’t really motivate myself to do that. Did I mention my current motivational problems :-)?)
Even after three additional days at home I’m feeling slightly off. Not as much as on the weekend or Monday, but still… Every once in a while my heart still beats like a jack-hammer, even though if I’m not exerting myself at all. When I’m merely sitting or lying somewhere. Every once in a while it feels like the blood is rushing to my head and I get dizzy. Maybe the weather is playing it’s part in all of that as well. I don’t know. The neurologist practice informed me that my bloodwork came back fine, only the lipase concentration is a bit high, but I should just come and have that checked out again in 2 weeks. According to Dr. Google a high concentration of lipase can cause all kinds of symptoms, but none of the ones I’m experiencing, so it’s probably really no big deal…
I’ll be spending the afternoon at my Mom’s, where I will first of all have to prepare my very own pasta salad, because Bro#3 recently complained that I’m not doing that as often as I used to for the whole family. Well, he didn’t really complain, but he mentioned it and then my mom sent him to get all the ingredients and now I have to step up :-) But as I enjoy eating it myself, it’s quite alright. The rest of the afternoon I’ll probably lounging on the sofa or outside on my Mom’s patio, listening to part 3 of the Outlander audiobook. I’ve almost reached the part, where the people of Cranesmuir drag her to the stake. Big revelations lay ahead and I’m looking forward to Jamie’s reaction, brought to me by the voice of the wonderful Davina Porter.
I didn’t feel too bad yesterday on the day after the last IV. The symptoms have lessened quite a lot, which I’m grateful for and which is the only thing makes the whole corticoidsteroid IV bearable. Because today? I feel crappy! Really crappy! I was doing fine yesterday throughout most of the day and already in the afternoon took some ibuprofen to help with the severe muscle pain of the corticoidsteroids withdrawel. It helped more or less and after dropping off Bro#3 at a friends and getting some groceries I tried to get comfortable at home. Took another ibuprofen, had dinner, watched the worldcup, went to bed early. I slept alright until around 3 AM when I had to take something for the pain again.
I usually do better on the 2nd day after the IVs, but this doesn’t seem to be the case this time. I woke up early and felt rather well rested (still in some pain though) and got a few tiny things done this morning. But around noon it just hit me again. My body still hurt and I felt dizzy, I felt sick to my stomach, my heart was (and still is) pounding heavily and I feel like the blood is all rushing to my head and it might explode anytime soon. Ugh! I hate that! I spend some time at my Mom’s this afternoon just to be in some company and now I’m back home, still feeling crappy and wallowing in self-pity. This really really sucks!
I didn’t take any painkillers all day, but I’ve just popped some paracetamol now, in the hopes that maybe that will work, if the ibuprofen didn’t do the trick yesterday! And then I’ll be snuggeling in my comfy loungechair in a few moments and watching Team Germany’s first match at the worldcup on TV. They better not screw this up! I need some good news tonight. (And I’m not even a real football fan, but it’s the worldcup, so….).
The one thing that helped me through this crappy day? Listening to the epic lovestory of Claire and Jamie :-) I’m still (or better all over again) so in love with this couple. The next chapter will be the wedding night, so definitely something to look forward to. During the intermission or after the match.